March 18th: train ride to NYC
Dear Tahni,
Hello, how are you? Yesterday was such a stressful day. Insomnia, early morning pick up for leaving the sublet, still no answer to my sos “am I going to sweden this week” email, my debit card was frozen for the supsisious activity of using it in canada after i cleared it for use in canada, no $ to buy snacks. Today i’m calm but yesterday I felt crazy. really crazy, mainly because of the uncertainty of sweden.
It was a ground though to imagine you imagining strings in your bones and thinking of me. In the beginning of the day i felt incapable of holding on to the strings or feeling them in my bones. in the sleep deprived crazy of the a.m. it was impossible, but once i came to the theater it became stronger. I could feel more. In the first run of the piece i felt you beside me through the 45 min dance. task of being aware of my partner kg, the audience, and you felt good and I adapted it into parts of the actual show. it was one of those shows were everything that could go wrong does, but it was a pleasure to navigate through the world, sometimes thinking of you and the residue of your strings.
i’m on the 12 hour train back to nyc right now. no internet so later i’ll cut and paste this into an email, but i know that i’ll have so much more time to write now, than when i get back.
i did some sleuthing and am indeed going to sweden. Mårten is m.i.a. this week. i’m actually kinda worried about him now that i’m done being stressed. last week he send mail saying all’s perfect, ticket bought, but no confermation and no responce to my mails. so i took a guess that i would be flying sas airline (based on him mentioning finding a flight from newark and i looked up newark to stockhom and found sas) I called there 1-800 number to request a vegetarian meal, but really to find out if i was flying! and viola, i’ll have the asian vegetarian meal to stockholm on thursday!
past lake champlain and along the hudson. it’s really a beautiful train ride between montreal and new york city.
Next monday i’ll be in stockholm and no idea what’s in store for me.
xoxo elizabeth